What Are You Running From?

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There were many amazing people at Write This Run on Saturday – as always, a conference that informs, amuses and inspires.

I don’t normally write about personal issues on my blog, but something that Sophie Walker said on Saturday at Write This Run, resonated. Not that my problems are on a par with her struggles…

Sophie Walker – mother, marathoner, author, campaigner


“what are you running from?” 

Honestly? Everything.

My relationship of 5 years has ended – over, boom, all my dreams and plans for the future gone, just like that. I won’t dwell on the details, but running is something I’m clinging to like a life-raft at this point.

It’s so tempting just to hide away, curl up on the sofa and bury my sorrow in chocolate. And don’t get me wrong that definitely has it’s place!

But running offers a focus or distraction.

A time to think, if needed, or to completely zone out. An opportunity to be sad away from other people, where you don’t have to put on a calm, “totally together” face. A chance to be angry, let the fury out – scream at cars like Sophie if you really want to.

It also adds an element of control and confidence back into my life when it feels like everything else is falling apart – this is something I can do.

Thank god for running.

Beki x

PS. Oh, and I am totally going back to Crossfit as soon as funds allow, to throw some weights around, and feel strong again!



14 thoughts on “What Are You Running From?”

  2. Run it out hun, run it out. Run as hard and as passionately and as sad and as angry and as tearful and as regretful as you need to. Run and laugh like a maniac, or cry and sob and scream. Run away from it, and run into it. Just keep running and eventually you will run back into your life. You will run into happiness and space and smiles and comfort. We are all here for you too, but running will get you through. xxx much love xxx

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  3. I'm very sorry to hear this Beki. I love Leah's description above and it was certainly what I did when I ran through (literally and metaphorically) times of heartbreak and difficulty. I remember running with a heavy heart and a feeling of agonising pain, with tears rolling down my face (but the best part about running is that people only catch a glimpse of you before you're out of their view…) and I've never run so far or so long or so hard in my life. And after time and healing, things do look up even when that may seem far away in the distance for now. Big hugs x x

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  4. Beki I'm so sorry to hear this, big hugs from Meeko and me. I know how horrible the end of a long-term relationship is so I hope you're being kind to yourself. I'm so glad running is helping, keep it and your chin up. Xxx

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  10. I too went through a major relationship breakup a few years ago and sport/fitness saved me. Running gives you time to think it all through, go round in circles, think about the 'what ifs' and then, when you stop running, you sit down, have a cuppa and keep going with your day because you've had that time to clear your head. On top of that, you can meet some great people through running – running can be a solo sport when you want it but it can also be a team effort, and when you need it the team is there 🙂 Keep smiling through the tough times – you never know what adventure is around the next corner x

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  13. Thanks for commenting Katy – I totally agree with what you've said, running gives you the strength to keep going with things. And I'm glad I've got to know such a great group of people who are so supportive! 🙂 x

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